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no hand holds on the wall of heaven

there are no hand holds on the wall of heaven
nothing to grasp, nothing but my own descent

and i ask

the gossamer cord, anchored like a tendon
to the muscles of my reaching, as it
slides through these hands before they know to close
and i realize, suddenly, how motionless i am beneath the sky

i ask if

standing still drenched in communal sweat
and the sweet smell of your saliva,
my mouth smiling your smile, remembering
the feel of it beneath me

this union, i ask if you know it too

and the chill of wind cuts through my clothing
waiting for a reply, waiting, as
density replaces being
in each repeated silence

if you know it too, this sacred yes

from the spasms of no reply
i’m pushed, like a newborn,
into a world i cannot envision
past the dream of it

and i ask

beneath the single light of the lamp
dull and humming in the pre-morn
grey as pavement and twice as lifeless
i ask myself instead to fly

beyond answers

here, with nothing to grasp,
with no map to lead me back within the wall of you

No Hand Hold on the Wall of Heaven © 2000 by Tobin James Mueller
"Falling Past Love" published by ArtsForge Press.
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